You: You’re always disappearing from this blog, you know that?
Me: *sigh* I know…
You: I understand you have responsibilities—
Me: This is going to be a lecture, isn’t it?
You: And that Life can be hard sometimes—
Me: Yup, definitely a lecture.
You: But you keep putting your blog and writing on hold. You can’t be a writer if you don’t actually write, you know.
Me: I know…I’ve noticed the pattern too. When Real Life gets too hard to juggle, I always say something’s got to go, and my blog tends to be the thing that goes.
You: Mhmm. Remember when your muse got pissed off at you because you were doing this before? When you neglected her and stopped writing?
You: Remember how long it took for you to get back into the writing routine? And remember how crappy your writing was?
Me: It was not that bad!
You: *raises an eyebrow*
Me: Okay, fine, my writing was crap.
You: Yes, it was, but it got better, because writing is just like any skill. You have to use it and you have to hone it. And if you don’t, then all you’ll have is crappy pieces of writing and a writing career that never got the chance to take off.
Me: Do you really think there’s a chance?
You: Yes, I do, because I believe in you, but it doesn’t matter what I believe. You need to stop sabotaging yourself. Remember that quote you love? By Cyril Connolly?
“Better to write for yourself and have no public, than to write for the public and have no self.”
You: Where are you going now, Jade?
Me: To make peace with my muse and write something crappy. That’s where I start, right?