“I sense colors in you. They’re strong and beautiful…and sad. I wondered what your colors were for a long time. They’re the colors of the sunset…the blazing shades of a sunset that burn just before the darkness sets in.”
—Fuyumi Soryo, MARS—
About a decade ago, I started reading manga, which is a type of Japanese graphic novel. One of the first manga series I picked up was MARS, and I devoured this love story between a shy art student and a rebellious motorcycle racer. Before I knew it, I was falling in love, having my heart broken, and crying tears—both of sadness and of joy—when I flipped the last page. I left a piece of my heart between the pages of this story and I think in return, MARS made a home in that missing piece.
Even after reading this series more times than I can count, it’s always this quote that touches me most. This quote reminds me that both light and darkness plague our lives. It reminds me of the brilliant beauty that still exists within all the pain we feel, and that being strong doesn’t mean we’re invincible. No, being strong means we feel every ounce of that pain, but we choose to stitch ourselves up and heal.
Finally, this quote makes me wonder what my own colors are, which have probably changed as I experienced life. I think, when I was a child, my colors were all the shades of pinks and yellows: bright and full of innocence. Now that I’m a little older, a little battered, and a little wiser, I think my colors have ebbed towards deep purples and teals. After all, purple is my favorite color and there’s something about the in-between hue of teal that attracts me.