You asked me to write my feelings,
And so I did, although I
Don’t know if you can help me,
But I’d still like you to try.
For years, I’ve walked in the dark
Trying to follow the light within,
But it’s been so long that I don’t know
Where the shadows end and I begin.
All day, I hear the voices
Drowning my brain with their venom,
They claw at the walls of my mind,
And all I can do is let them.
Although surviving is second nature to me,
Living? I don’t know the meaning of the word,
And all I crave is freedom,
To fly as untethered as a bird.
So I ask you, when there’s a brick
For every day, month, and year
I’ve spent keeping the demons at bay,
Building a wall of pain and fear,
Can you really knock it down?
Is there a path back to me,
Back to quiet and hope and light,
Can you really help me?
© Jade M. Wong
Hello everyone! It’s been a couple months, and I hope you’re all doing well. I wanted to update all of you since my last post.
For the past couple months, I have indeed been going to therapy regularly, and have finally been officially diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder (we’ve only just started tackling my anxiety during my last session, so no official diagnosis on that yet). Even though I had already suspected my diagnosis, it was still a relief for me to finally put a name to this Thing I’d been dealing with for so long.
One of the effects of my therapy is that my therapist has managed to get me writing again. I’m still struggling to write as much as I used to, but I have completed my first poem in ages and I’m excited to share with you guys! It’s a little rough, but I wrote it and for that, I am satisfied. I hope you all like it, and I look forward to catching up on all I’ve missed here in the blog-o-sphere.
P.S. What do you guys think of the new theme? I felt like it was time for a change.