[Poetry] Therapy

You asked me to write my feelings,
And so I did, although I
Don’t know if you can help me,
But I’d still like you to try.

For years, I’ve walked in the dark
Trying to follow the light within,
But it’s been so long that I don’t know
Where the shadows end and I begin.

All day, I hear the voices
Drowning my brain with their venom,
They claw at the walls of my mind,
And all I can do is let them.

Although surviving is second nature to me,
Living? I don’t know the meaning of the word,
And all I crave is freedom,
To fly as untethered as a bird.

So I ask you, when there’s a brick
For every day, month, and year
I’ve spent keeping the demons at bay,
Building a wall of pain and fear,

Can you really knock it down?
Is there a path back to me,
Back to quiet and hope and light,
Can you really help me?

© Jade M. Wong

Hello everyone! It’s been a couple months, and I hope you’re all doing well. I wanted to update all of you since my last post. 

For the past couple months, I have indeed been going to therapy regularly, and have finally been officially diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder (we’ve only just started tackling my anxiety during my last session, so no official diagnosis on that yet). Even though I had already suspected my diagnosis, it was still a relief for me to finally put a name to this Thing I’d been dealing with for so long. 

One of the effects of my therapy is that my therapist has managed to get me writing again. I’m still struggling to write as much as I used to, but I have completed my first poem in ages and I’m excited to share with you guys! It’s a little rough, but I wrote it and for that, I am satisfied. I hope you all like it, and I look forward to catching up on all I’ve missed here in the blog-o-sphere.

P.S. What do you guys think of the new theme? I felt like it was time for a change. 

29 thoughts on “[Poetry] Therapy

  1. Hello Jade. First this was an awesome piece of writing. Loved the line about the where the shadow ends and you begin. Classic.

    Sorry, to hear of your diagnosis. Please take good care of yourself. Life is to be lived one day at a time. Don’t let it stress you. And writing has always been my therapy. Letting out our feelings in our words can be enlighteing.

    Wishing you all the best. Hope to see you back soon.

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  2. Jade, I am so happy to see you here today. I am also happy to hear that you’re making progress with therapy and to see you writing again. Also, I love the new theme. Take care, my friend.

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    • Thank you so much, Diana! It’s so nice to hear from you. I look forward to catching up on the adventures of my favorite French twins, Ray and Marcus ;). I hope you’re doing well, my friend!

      P.S. Glad you love the new theme!

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  3. So many lovely bloggers posted today and you’re one of them! I’m glad to read that you’re making progress with therapy and glad that you’re writing again with their support…I’ve noticed that since my father passed away this past October that I’m only posting once or twice a month…your touching poem reminds me that I have a poem that needs publishing as soon as I smooth out some rough edges! Welcome back, dear Jade!

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  4. Hello there dear Jade..i am happy to see you here again and happy too that you have finally been on a therapy..on step at a time they say…keep goin….and keep writing..i love the new theme by thw way..

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        • I know, it’s been ages since I’ve been here, but I’m trying to blog regularly again and reconnect with the wonderful bloggers here. My blog has always been a great way for me to ease back into writing.

          I’m doing well 🙂 Everyone’s love and support are definitely felt and it’s meant the world to me that people are taking time to leave their kindness here for me. How are you and your girls??

          P.S. I recently completed my Ravenclaw cosplay for Comic Con this year (except the wand). I’ll send you a photo via email soon so you can pass it on to your girls. Spreading the Harry Potter love! 💙

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